Tonight I lost my temper

I try to keep home issues inside the home and not on social media but tonight I really lost my temper. Why am I telling you this? I guess more of I needed to get the frustrations off my chest and writing for me is therapeutic.

Potty training is stressful. No parent ever said "oh I love potty training, it's such a breeze". I am going to call you out right now on that. My sweet Jane is potty trained for the most part, I only have to remind her a few times here and there if she is doing the pee pee dance but for the most part she is really awesome about going herself. Now when it comes to #2 she is still struggling with that and I get it. When you are in a diaper or pull up that is where it all goes so trying to tell your brain okay when I need to go I go to the potty that mom keeps telling me about.

See here is where I lost my temper pretty bad. I had just finished cleaning poop out of her undies so I could wash them and made her sit on the potty to still encourage her to still try and explained poop in undies is yucky and we use the potty for that. If you remember me talking about Jane and her speech delay well she is autistic as well.

We were all upstairs getting ready for bed when I noticed that she needed to go to the bathroom. So I told her to go. Well she went all right but not in the potty.  Now I don't know if it was because she didn't make it in time or what but I had steam coming out of my ears because there was poop on the bathroom floor. 

I shouldn't have gotten mad the way I did and believe me I feel horrible and currently laying down, snuggling. I get it she is a kid and potty training is hard work even for her. I can't except to snap my fingers and all her issues go away and she magically has no more accidents. I should know with Jane it will take a little bit longer.

So next time when you feel your blood boiling and you want to open your mouth to yell. Don't. Stop. Take a long deep breath and look into your child's eyes. Their little souls take in everything we do to and with them. We are their parents to help to teach them, hold them when they cry or laugh with them. I want my child to respect me not fear me.

What have you found helps you when you are about to lose your temper and not just with your child?